I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a lengthy while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I could be doing this for the incorrect reason; as an easy way in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. a course in miracles What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I really could not think of anything that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief has been (has been?) released.
You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.